At the end of your rope? Tie a knot!

Lately it seems the things that
have flowed from my mind
to my fingers have not been
what most would call “inspiring”.
Hence, they reside locked away
in a folder with about 40 or more
pieces in various stages
of completion.

So, I thought I’d reach a
bit further into my heart
than my head tonight -
because someone reading this
really needs to hear it;
starting with me.

Few things say desperation as much as a kid
sitting in his room with a knife against his wrist -
tears streaming down his face because
he doesn’t think anyone cares;
and he doesn’t either.

That was many many years ago, and
I can’t tell you exactly why I stopped.
What I can say is that I’m fairly certain
it had something to do with my brother.

I don’t even think he knew, but just knowing
how disappointed he would be and how sad
it would have made him if I were gone…
Well, it gave me a knot at the end of my rope.
And to be honest, it wouldn’t be the last time.

Now you know something about me that I have
never shared because I’ve been ashamed of it.
I’ve always perceived it as proof of my weakness
and evidence to my feelings of inadequacy…

Hopefully you’ve never, nor will ever reach that point.

But I’ve got to ask you this:
What is YOUR knot ?

When situations become unbearable
and circumstances are overwhelming -
what or who is the knot in your rope
that keeps you from falling off the edge?

There are no right or wrong answers here -
but there had better be an answer, so look deep.

Is it a faith or belief system you have (religious or not)?
Do you have an unshakeable self esteem or self love?
Are there people in your Life who are so important to you
that you would not only give your life for them, but also live it?

What is it for you
that keeps you from slipping;
what or who picks you up when you fall?

For myself, there have been many more knots added;
knots made by faith & belief, others out of passion & purpose.
Over the years still more knots tied by those who have given
me strength when I was weak, wisdom where I was a fool,
and compassion when I was cold and alone.
These are knots tied out of and with Love -
the kind that can never fray or unravel;
knots made to last a Lifetime…

Now, I’m about to ask you something.
I doubt this took you 4 hours to read -
but that’s how much time it took to write.
It was a struggle the past couple of nights
as to whether I should reveal to you such a
secret of what I’ve long considered shameful.
Yet thankfully and again I’m putting my ego aside
and submitting to you my weakness – my humanity.
Because that’s what there was to do,
that’s what there was to say,
and it needed to be said.

I… am asking you…
to share.

Some time ago I ordered cards made
that had two hands holding a globe.
On it was printed:

UnleashYourselves.com

and underneath it read:

“Because everyone has a story to share
that could make a difference…

Will you share ? “

I believe that, with all my heart -
and even if you don’t think the things you
might have to say would help someone;
trust me when I tell you THEY WILL !!!

There is someone who needs to hear it -
and what you share may be the knot
that will be tied at the end of their rope.

Please take a moment to give to someone
who neither I nor anyone else may reach.
It matters… It will make a difference…

What is your knot ?